As predicted,was totally beat today.
It was already kinda late when I returned from East coast.
And was later when I called him.

It was initiated as a chat..
Then it turned unpleasant.

Coz I know I gotta bring it up sooner or later.Maybe I should have thought of a time to do that,not at least when he is sick.And he is still sick.

But I am the kinda person that cant sit back and wait for results.
I rather get things over and done with than to sit and wait.

Perhaps like how I read stories sometimes,I would tend to flip to the end of the page.

It was not good,but I wouldnt say it's bad either.

Still we have not come to a compromise state coz it is not just something that we can do within one talk.
Maybe it takes time.

Still...I wasnt sure.
At one pt I dont think I am right.
Yet I dont think I am wrong either.

We have our own way to expressing,our own way to deal.

Maybe I am the tyrant here.Always.

Maybe I dunno what I want,really.

But one thing is that you cannot be so confident of me that at the end of everything,I will always be appreciative of all you have done.

That is something everyone thinks I should.

But we are just humans,and I aint no saint.

Sometimes I just dont.
It's like even when everything is to a comfort zone,you will still wanna look for something new.

Coz it's like at one end,I am not satisfied.
Do not ask me what I am unsatisfied about.

Perhaps alot of gals would be glad,given my situation.Coz it is always about me.

Sometimes I do,but sometimes I dont.

Yes,I am a taker most of the time.
But I dun wanna push it.

It's not clear for me to type it out here,not clear enough for me to really say it.

Anyway...Let's just learn as we do.

You are sick.
Please learn to take care of urself even if i am not there.

While I dont preach what I say.While I am dependent.
I dun encourage over dependency.

gotta go.
talking to u now.^^